A slice of my heart lives in heaven

My Pom, my baby, my diva, my joy pill, my shooting star. You are a little slice of my heart and I am beyond thankful for the opportunity to be a part of your short but wonderful life. You were a one of a kind type of child. The kind who stole the show with her entrance. You were intelligent, witty, cheerful, loving to say the very least. Nothing about you was ordinary You were my profound yet painful gift from God.

I remember the days that everything looked dark to me (sad days) I would call you to stay with me and your little innocent self always cheered me up and gave me joy. You will jump on my tummy and I always kissed your face.

I remember how I always told you I wanted to eat you all up and you rolled your diva eyes at me asking me why? I told you it was because you were so delicious and darn cute.

I remember when you asked me “Aunty why are you always telling me you love me” I said because I don’t want you to ever forget. I hope you didn’t forget?

I remember when people will ask you “do you know you are a pretty

girl?” and you will nod in agreement with pride and confidence. I usually make them ask you “how do you know” you always said Aunty Sandra told me so.

I remember the excitement in your eyes whenever I walked into your class to pick you up from school. You would run and give me a very big hug, which always made my day, then proceed to tell me all about your day. You said hi to everyone as we made our way to the car.

The only framed picture I own is of you.  It sits right there in my room. Everyone who walks into my room talks about how cute you are.

I wish I had the opportunity to brace for this impact because my heart is broken into unfathomable pieces. Since your loss the volume of the world has been turned down, a lot has been muted to silence and clarity has come. I hear it will be better but it still is visceral as it’s ever been. Though death has hurt my heart and wrenched my soul, it can not take away the love we shared or memories we hold. I’m glad I told you how much I loved you at every opportunity I got, It won’t change baby, I still and would always love you.

For the very first time Rest in Peace my Angel. We miss you down here. Fly on!