Faith

       Today happens to be one of those days I just feel really uplifted. I have been having a hard time being happy for a couple of days. So many frustrating thoughts, relationship, school, work etc it just seemed like my whole world was crashing on my shoulders. I believe we all have at a point in our life felt same way. It maybe after loosing a close friend or even family. It maybe after an ugly break up with a loved one. It maybe due to financial issues or just so many things, and you just get so frustrated wondering were help will come from. Sometimes it may even get as far as thinking of death.

       I badly needed a breath of fresh air so I called my friend, and she told me she was at work, eager to see her I asked where and if I could stop by? she agreed and described her workplace. I got in my car and headed towards her. On getting there, I pressed the bell and there she was. "what are you doing working in someone's house" were my first words to her. She said 'come inside jor" dragged me in and I sat down. She explained to me how she met this wealthy nurse who talked her into coming over to help her take care of her disabled child. I immediately told her I wanted to see the child. This was a pretty little girl lying helpless on the floor. She smiled at me and my heart melted. I realized she could not speak, sit or talk. She had severe brain damage that left her that way, and she lost her biological parents at only 2 and got adopted by my friend's employers. I couldn't help but tear up. This little girl may never leave a normal life, but she still managed to smile at everyone. I felt totally inspired and you should too!

     Here is what I have to say to you; I have felt the same, or even way worse. I sat on my bed thinking of all the wrong things going on in my life, and I kid you not, I almost had a heart attack. I reached out to my laptop and started playing the song "my life is in your hands" by Kirk Franklin. I felt totally uplifted. My faith became stronger and all my worries suddenly meant nothing.  I kept replaying this song and speaking positively to myself. I said to myself; 'people have worse problems and they still smile'. This is just a passing phase in my life and I am very sure my God will not let this problem kill me. I will get over it. I always have and always will. When I do, I quickly forget how it felt. I asked God for forgiveness for not having enough faith in him, for not trusting him to take care of me. I prayed and I felt really happy like I reconciled with God. 

Do not let problems weigh you down, I know its hard, but whenever life knocks you down always remember, that you have Jesus and he will never leave you alone.  No matter what life serves you always be positive and hold on to God!!